Many of you may be wondering why I have not yet commented on the recent tragedy in Newtown, CT, so I wanted to give you some insight into my process.
Like many, I have been on emotional overload. This impacted me so significantly as a mother, aunt, and human being that I have needed time to process it and manage my own energy before reaching out to you.
As a person coming from a spiritual perspective, I know at a soul level that everything that happens moves us forward. However, my heart is bleeding for these families and what they are going through, and I have, myself, been dealing with anger, frustration, deep sadness, and a sense of fear and despair. The local school attended by my assistant's boys was closed today due to a threat…so my emotions continue to spin.
At times like these, I am doing what I recommend to you – managing my own energy. Even before speaking with our children, we first need to manage our own energy. Though committed to spiritual practice, I am not able to bounce back and paint this whole thing a pretty pink, and I would be out of integrity if I gave you platitudes about the meaning of this event.
What I do know is that we all need to let it be okay to be where we are emotionally, and to manage our own energy. Maybe we need to quit watching so much news about the event. Definitely we need to focus on loving our own families and friends.
I couldn't coach people through this while I'm still managing my own energy, yet I can coach you to do what I'm doing – what my own inner coach is guiding me to do: Be gentle with yourself, know that you can't make sense of it, pray that some good comes from this (I'm not there yet, but I'm working towards this place), pray for the little souls we lost, pray for their peace and their families' peace. I believe that prayer is powerful.
And when things happen that don't make sense, I write them in a little journal as “things I'm going to ask when I cross over.” This provides me a level of comfort, so I'm offering it to you as well.
So like, you, I'm still processing and managing my energy around this horrible event, and I give you full permission to be gentle with yourself, manage your energy, and let it be okay to have conflicting energy about this and the solutions being discussed.
May we all find some sense of peace.